Tuesday, May 1
Magical time..happiest time..
Got up..bed was spinning to fast..may as well write.
Never felt so calm..so joyous..learning what free means.
My two daughters dancing with me. I swore to Ari I'd be the Father she never had.
Ari has a Mother, from before she was shipped to me? She had a previous owner! Does that make me..owww my head.
Not since my bar mitzvah..did I have the chance to celebrate.
Maypole dancing with Darkling..tripping me up with magic and spiking my drinking horn. I let her. Annastina danced with me. Emilly was there..but it was sacred space so I wasn't afraid. I thanked her for giving me a chance.
Did you know..they're already trying to summon him back? I hear them in French and Gaelic voices soft and pleading and raging. But this is not a skeleton or dragon disguise I'm NOT HIM never will be!
The only cry that hurts is his son yowling for the father he never knew to come back.
I'm brought back home..and I wake up coated in sweat and fumbling for aspirin..boots still on, never even got in the covers..and alone.
Beltane..magical time..the saddest time